again, i was let down. perhaps my expectations are too high. perhaps, i say..
doesn’t matter, i knew it would happen. but i still hoped.
… i just pray that the day will never come, the day when i’ll say “i gave up hoping..”
ah, well..
cheers to better things ahead.
intimate stranger
all too familiar are your thoughtful words and kind gestures
you played with emotions, a gaze too painful for the eyes to see
an empty smile offered sincerely from my inmost being
intimate stranger
i had you but never really own you
the answer will remain a question
perhaps one day there will be that final closure
intimate stranger
the uncanny feeling repeats itself
it’s been too long yet i’ve journey no where
unshackle these chains, you hold the key
intimate stranger
listen and listen well
i now take a step back with hopes to move two step forward
and i know my God’s strength will brave me through
updates.
yupp, here i go again.
there’s been too many happenings happening that i dunno where to begin or what should i even share. basically, the past three months (and hopefully more to come) has been one of the most fulfilling months ever — in a very very very personal way. it’s like getting a reward after a tedious race, a good bonus after long labour at work. heh, never mind if you still don’t get me – just know that i’m happy.
on another note, i’ve matured lately; in my thought and in my actions. i’ve learn to pause and look, to be still and just listen, not to be too quick to judge but to be more open-minded and understanding. i’ve also learn (in a slightly painful way) that sometimes it’s not good to get too attached to something/ someone.
on another another note, work has been good (and sometimes not so good). i’m learning a lot, i’m meeting great people. however, progress with different projects has been on the slow side but nonetheless there’s still some positive points to it. hoping things will start picking up from now on.
more to share. but i’ll save it for another time – whenever that will be.
one day i’ll blog a proper update, but i’ll resort to this for now. this arrived in my inbox a couple of minutes ago:
Once upon a time there was a wise man who used to go to the ocean to do his writing. He had a habit of walking on the beach before he began his work. One day he was walking along the shore. As he looked down the beach, he saw a human figure moving like a dancer. He smiled to himself to think of someone who would dance to the day. So he began to walk faster to catch up.
As he got closer, he saw that it was a young man and the young man wasn’t dancing, but instead he was reaching down to the shore, picking up something and very gently throwing it into the ocean.
As he got closer he called out, “Good morning! What are you doing?”
The young man paused, looked up and replied, “Throwing starfish in the ocean.” “I guess I should have asked, why are you throwing starfish in the ocean?” “The sun is up, and the tide is going out, and if I don’t throw them in they’ll die.” “But, young man, don’t you realize that there are miles and miles of beach, and starfish all along it. You can’t possibly make a difference!”
The young man listened politely. Then bent down, picked up another starfish and threw it into the sea, past the breaking waves and said, “It made a difference for that one.”
There is something very special in each and every one of us. We have all been gifted with the ability to make a difference, and if we can become aware of that gift, we gain through the strength of our visions the power to shape the future.
We must each find our starfish. And if we throw our stars wisely and well, the world will be blessed.
