emotions
i thought i had you in control
i guess i could have been wrong
surprises
i wonder what’s in store
i can’t say i’m eager to unwrap you just yet
choices
not easy to make one
it’s harder to stick by it
when you know some choices can hurt
again, i was let down. perhaps my expectations are too high. perhaps, i say..
doesn’t matter, i knew it would happen. but i still hoped.
… i just pray that the day will never come, the day when i’ll say “i gave up hoping..”
ah, well..
cheers to better things ahead.
updates.
yupp, here i go again.
there’s been too many happenings happening that i dunno where to begin or what should i even share. basically, the past three months (and hopefully more to come) has been one of the most fulfilling months ever — in a very very very personal way. it’s like getting a reward after a tedious race, a good bonus after long labour at work. heh, never mind if you still don’t get me – just know that i’m happy.
on another note, i’ve matured lately; in my thought and in my actions. i’ve learn to pause and look, to be still and just listen, not to be too quick to judge but to be more open-minded and understanding. i’ve also learn (in a slightly painful way) that sometimes it’s not good to get too attached to something/ someone.
on another another note, work has been good (and sometimes not so good). i’m learning a lot, i’m meeting great people. however, progress with different projects has been on the slow side but nonetheless there’s still some positive points to it. hoping things will start picking up from now on.
more to share. but i’ll save it for another time – whenever that will be.
should i get this baby now? or should i wait?
is there anything better out there that’s affordable and of better value?
i like her looks. i so love the fact that she’s light and petite. but i don’t feel like burning a hole in my pocket at this point. especially now when i’m on the verge of committing myself to some financial commitments.
on the other hand, my current five year old acer travel mate 370 laptop (which i’m very happy and comfortable with) might just die on me anytime now.
here are some reviews:
now i need an expert’s advice.
i dunno if anyone still bothers to visit this site anymore now that it hardly gets updated. even i can’t find the time to log on to post up updates. sad but true, working life robs the best out of you at times.
but i’m good and doing well. all by His grace and strength.
one month has passed. somehow it felt longer. the excitement and satisfaction is still there along with the stress. as they say, it comes with the package.
bills. bills. bills.
urgh. i’m suppose to be saving money.
i’m up to something. something challenging.
but i’m still not too sure if it’s doable. so till i know for certain, my lips are shut tight. but if it works out, it would be totally awesomely exciting and mesmerising. i’m praying really really hard…
oh, i’ve moved to a new place which gives a resort-like feeling. i’m missing the good view that i had back in my old place though. guess you can’t have everything. but still what i do have is still pretty good.
going through a series of events (no worries, nothing bad happened) the past few days had me thinking a lot about how much i have achieved and how blessed i am to be where i am today.
no, i’m not trying to sound proud or be all egoistic about it. on the contrary, i became more humble. no doubt i have put in a fair share of hard work into the things that i do, but so have many others as well. sometimes i wonder why is it harder for them. i wonder why things just don’t work out. it’s easy to say life isn’t fair but really it’s not a wise thing to tell someone who has gone through one hardship after another.
please, never ever do a comparison. i could have easily been that one in that position. how would have things turn out then? i don’t know. i don’t dare to imagine. perhaps i too would be bitter. perhaps i would have thrown in the towel much earlier. so many things could have happen.
ever since i cheated death once, life has been even more precious to me. life is God’s gift to me. nothing is really ‘mine’. the breathe that i have, the achievements that i have achieved and even the bad experiences that i’ve gone through (cos ultimately you’ll learn something good and valuable out of it) is a gift.
i’m reminded to be humble and grateful again.
well, the title for this post pretty much explains itself. so just text me a message to my old mobile number and in return i’ll text you back with my new number.
easy peasy … yes?
now with my new job, i just cant foresee myself updating my blog as frequently as i would like to. even when i have some minutes to spare, i just don’t have anything to say.
life day to day is pretty much routine now. the job is still great and i’m still loving it but it’s missing the excitement that i once had. i saw a group of reporters attending a press conference two days ago at my office. my mind wandered away to those days that had passed.
don’t get me wrong. i don’t have any regrets joining this company. there’s just so much to explore and learn from my job. there’s always that challenge to push myself a little harder to achieve better, to dare to be daring and to think smart. and i really love the company of people that i work with.
so, will i trade everything that i have now to do what i previously did? nope, i simply just can’t see myself doing that either.
well, i guess you can’t have everything. but i’m grateful for what i do have. and more good things will soon follow. i believe so…
finding a good job that i know i would love felt like i was trying to find a needle in a hay stack – almost impossible! after countless disappointments and emotional weariness, by God’s grace i managed to find that one lil tiny needle. and i couldn’t be happier.
a week has passed since i started my new job. as each day unfolds, i began to understand why i had to go through the long wait, why certain bitter experiences were necessary but most importantly, how faithful the Lord had been in providing for every single need, big and small. nothing, absolutely nothing – i.e. past experiences, waiting period, etc. – was a waste. everything that happened, happened for reason and happened in accordance with His perfect timing.
and how’s my job? i absolutely love it to bits! it’s a perfect answer to a long prayer. i’ve got great colleagues and an awesome working environment. sure there are goals to set, targets to meet, kpi’s to keep me on my toes and pressure to deliver my responsibilities efficiently and well. but which job doesn’t have all that, right?
all i know and will do is to give a 100 percent to my work and allow God to do the rest.
